So those [are] new emotions to consider and reconcile.
Was this a way to parse through your relationship with your parents?
I relived trauma in my life.
Credit: Jac Martinez
In the back of half of the book you have a reconstruction of your moms life growing up.
The book was cathartic and therapeutic for me to finally bring those things into the room.
She said, I think you could lend humanity to it.
Nicole Jarvis
I wanted to have a neat ending.
Everything will always be suspended into the next question.
What I learned is that power of the unfinished story being the real one.
I was getting all these notes for each person.
And then I would go to the next person and realized they were recalling the same memory completely differently.
I was so bothered at first.
Then I was excited by it because I had had those doubts about myself.
What if Im remembering this incorrectly?
Realizing thats always the truth.
Were always remembering something because youve lived with that memory and its going to look different.
So I wrote that authors note last about memories and different bodies.
The book was focused on my experiences when I submitted the book.
It was seeing that weve actually lived parallel lives.
Seeing those parallels, I knew the last section is hers because its also mine, you know?
I am convinced that Taylor Hanson is many queer womens gateway crush.
The shadow of this other version of myself or these desires were always there.
And I really dont think there is one.
Thats what saved my life growing up.
