But then she wondered…

I have a lot of footage….

I dont know whats on [the tapes].

Sandra LeeCR: Food Network

Food Network

I was drugged out; I couldve said anything.

But Nevins encouraged her to edit the video to see what she had.

She looked at me and said, Are you sure you wanna do this?

Rx Early Detection A Cancer Journey With Sandra LeeCR: HBO

HBO

Because youve built a brand on everything being pretty and perfect always.

But thats not reality.

Reality is, life is messy, and these things happen.

Rx Early Detection A Cancer Journey With Sandra LeeCR: HBO

HBO

I know why I was supposed to go through it.

I always believe that we all have a purpose and your goal is to understand what your purpose is.

I can decorate on a dime.

I can build you a house out of [popsicle] sticks, hot glue, and glitter.

I know how to be resourceful, and thats what I built my career on.

I didnt realize how irreverent I was being to cancer, and how pissed I was.

It was time for me to get on the gurney, and I looked at them…. Rx: Early Detection, A Cancer Journey With Sandra Leepremieres Oct. 8 on HBO.