Ariana Grande posted a video on Instagram Friday captioned with a heartfelt message to her late ex-boyfriend Mac Miller.

i adored you from the day i met you when i was nineteen and i always will.

i cant believe you arent here anymore.

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i really cant wrap my head around it, Grande wrote.

The singer goes on, we talked about this.

im so mad, im so sad i dont know what to do.

you were my dearest friend.

im so sorry i couldnt fix or take your pain away.

i really wanted to.

the kindest, sweetest soul with demons he never deserved.

i hope youre okay now.

rest, Grande ends the post.